I Did It Again
It’s a real problem for me, this overachiever personality disorder I’ve got. I can’t seem to sit on my hands. I’ve been like this since I was young–I participated in several sports, held multiple jobs and a full course load in school.
Just yesterday I was telling Elisabeth how overwhelmed I’ve been, and I silently promise myself I’m going to back off all these things I’ve offered to do (whether they pay or not…mostly not). Then I went to a meeting for my rowing club…
I sat in the very back and kept my mouth SHUT. I was so good. I breezed through officer elections. *Phew* I could have done the Treasurer or Secretary job…but kept my hands under my butt. Then came the design committee for remodeling the boathouse meeting room. Oh, man, that one was hard. I do have a degree in interior design after all. It was like setting a pound of Sees in front of a woman with PMS. But I managed to keep my mouth closed until they’d found their three for the committee.
I was almost home free. I was jingling the keys in my pocket, picturing my car in the lot, thinking about all the things I still had to do that day…and they mentioned a club website.
I waited. I didn’t throw my hand up and say, “I’ll do it, I’ll do it.” A couple of people looked at a few others and they said, “Don’t look at me, I’m technically challenged.” Then another guy said, “Why don’t we do a Yahoo message board? We can post pictures…yadda, yadda.”
I couldn’t take it. My hand was only halfway up when they acknowledged me and I resigned myself as I said, “I could build one if you’re interested.”
What’s wrong with me? Why do I feel the need to get my fingers into everything? I’m not a big control freak, I’m happy to let others do it their way, but I always seem to have to initiate it, get the ball rolling.
Does anyone else have this problem? How do I fix it?